I am moving to Los Angeles for the fall. And the winter. And the spring. And maybe for a little longer. I don't know yet.
In two weeks my lease is up on my apartment in New York. I have spent the last 7 years living in New York. The Bronx, first. Then Brooklyn. Then Manhattan.
I love New York. It's my home. And that's what makes it okay to leave for a little while, because I know it's where I will be in five years. New York is where I will have children. New York is where I will die, most likely because I jaywalked into a UPS truck.
So why go to LA?
Because I have wanted to, for many years. Because right now my gut says go, and I have never felt so strongly that now is the time. Because if you feel like you need to go to LA, you should probably go to LA.
Still: why go to LA?
Because I'm tired of New York, of rushing everywhere. And I'm sick from the subway and the noise.
In Los Angeles I will be outside more. I will swim more. I will swim every day if I can.
I want to write my book at the beach. So after the summer, I am going to go to LA. (I'm either driving or flying. TBD!)
And why not this second?
Because I can't work/function full time right now. I'm going to freelance and work part time until I am better and then I'm going to go.
But you're sick. You can't be sick across the country!
There it is. The challenge. Can I be sick away from my family? Every single person I've talked to has brought this up. You can't do it, they say.
Fuck that, I say. I have let illness own my life for many years now. I stayed in New York City, even when I wanted to go far away for college. I didn't study abroad because everyone told me I couldn't. I didn't major in premed because everyone told me I'd get sick. I listened to everybody. I did. I listened to everyone.
And I am still fucking sick.
But don't worry, guys. I'll be careful in California. I'll wear sunscreen. I'll exercise more and eat better and I will live in Los Angeles. They even have doctors in Los Angeles! Best of all, they have medical marijuana in Los Angeles.
They have copywriting jobs in Los Angeles. They have better weather in Los Angeles. They have the sun and they have space, space for me.
And so I think that's what I am going to do. I think that after Labor Day, I am going to move to Los Angeles.*
*Unless I change my mind or am offered some sort of brilliant job in New York